Let all bitterness, and anger, and indignation, and clamour, and blasphemy, be put away from you, with all malice. And be ye kind one to another; merciful, forgiving one another, even as God hath forgiven you in Christ.
Epistle Of Saint Paul To The Ephesians 4: 31-32 www.drbo.org
Who has been able to master this? I, certainly struggle with forgiveness…well..let me rephrase that…I struggle with forgetting. Forgiving isn’t as hard as forgetting, at least for me. I can trust in the Lord to help me to forgive but somehow I am more afraid to ask Him to help me forget. Why is that? Do I fear that if I forget, I will find myself in the same situation countless times and not be smart enough to avoid it? Do I not trust in the Lord to steer me away from those particular situations or do I just want to have control over situations which have caused me pain?
Pain is not something I like to deal with, regardless of where is comes from. Heartache, loss, physical pain, there are so many different degrees of pain but I prefer not to deal with any of them. I would (at one point) described myself as “happy-go-lucky” others had used the word “cheery” but pain has changed my countenance. Once again, let me rephrase.. I have allowed pain to change my countenance to one that is not so “cheery” but more of a “woebegone” type.
Yet, I don’t fear pain. I can easily agree that the pain that I have had in my life has formed me to be the person I am today. It has been what has brought me to my knees and without a doubt, what has brought me back to God with such a tremendous force. I had never left God, I just had put Him on a shelf where I knew He would be waiting for me when “I” needed Him. While, convenient as that was, that was not where God wanted nor should have been. He should have been Always in the forefront of all that is/was my life.
Dear God, help us to forget and not only forgive. May we be more like You, You who forgive us and forget our transgressions at our mere request. We need only to ask pardon for our sins, voice our regrets in penance. You provide to us complete absolution, seeing in our heart and soul true remorse for our actions. In Your goodness, You provide us with peace. Thank you, Heavenly Father. Amen.