Then Jesus answered and said: O unbelieving and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I suffer you? bring him hither to me. And Jesus rebuked him, and the devil went out of him, and the child was cured from that hour. Then came the disciples to Jesus secretly, and said: Why could not we cast him out? [ Jesus said to them: Because of your unbelief. For, amen I say to you, if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you shall say to this mountain, Remove from hence hither, and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible to you. But this kind is not cast out but by prayer and fasting.
Matthew 17 16-20 www.drbo.org
Take a look at a mustard seed, just one little mustard seed. Then take that mustard seed and place it in the center of the palm or your hand. Is it me or does it make your hand seem like a giant compared to that seed? Now take your mustard seed and set in the middle of your kitchen table, how immense is that table now? If you can locate that mustard seed on your kitchen table, take it out and set on your lawn, now how enormous is your lawn?
I heard this passage, I can’t remember when/where, I have heard it before but it didn’t move me as it did this time. I have not been able to stop thinking of the thoughts that ran through my mind as I listened to it. I found the passage in the bible and read it and still thinking the same thoughts… “If our Lord ask us to have the faith of a mustard seed…and nothing shall be impossible…”
As I looked at that mustard seed, held it on the tip of my finger and the reality of just how small that seed really is, my mind kept going. If this is all the faith that Our Lord ask of us, have I this much faith? As I continued to think about it (mind you this has been going for about a week) I thought surely if the faith of a mustard seed is all that is needed I should have that much faith; but then I realized that that much faith is a lot harder to get, if it wasn’t would we all have the faith to move mountains?
So what is keeping us from that “faith”? Well after some thought and prayer, I have decided that the Saints had the faith of a mustard seed and since I am not a Saint, I must have the faith of a small salt crystal. And because the mustard seed is so small, it is very easy to lose. Sadly that is the reality. My conclusion to the mustard seed is this–When God ask us to have the faith of a mustard seed, I believe He is saying that if our faith is small, yet unwavering we can have the impossible however if our faith is small and waves like the light of a candle; flickers small then big them small again and occasionally blowing out because of some wind– then that faith can’t move mountains. For me, my faith wavers especially when things get hard. I have lost both my parents, my daughter and many others dear to me not to mention many ups and downs in my daily life and YES, it is hard to maintain a constant strong faith. When I think I have it down, the evil one sends something into my life that takes away a big chunk of my faith and I have to begin to rebuild it. Each time I hope I build it with stronger materials so that the next blow doesn’t take me away from the Light of my Life–GOD, JESUS, & THE HOLY SPIRIT.
We must take the many daily bombardments in our life and strengthen our hold on that mustard seed. Lord, Our God please make us stronger each and every day that we might not lose the glow of your Light upon us. May we remember your promise to us and that we may not doubt your plans for us but always keep sight of your Love.